About two weeks ago I was upset (shocker…). I was faced with a certain individual from my past that the Lord had me distance myself from. I found out just why shortly after. Long story short, this person has been despicable to me since then. Truth be told the only thing that has actually hurt was the fact that the Lord commanded me to keep my peace. I didn’t appreciate that test early on but I know now that God was building my character in Him and reminding me who and what I wrestle against.
Although the testing occurred about years ago, this individual did a cameo recently and was just as despicable to me (or at least they tried to be..smh). I wasn’t happy at all. I felt on my own, Like some cycles in my life are just that; cycles. I spent the week pondering why after the Lord had removed this individual, that he would allow them back to be a terror.
Then it hit me, I was looking in the mirror. You see, when we pray to God to show us our faults, He will. It’s something about not being actively tested that causes us to become laxed and backslide in our ways. I didn’t see how my recent actions were affecting a certain individual. I was speaking truth about a matter but I wasn’t doing it in love at all. In turn it made me no better than the individual that was speaking lies among other things about me.
I was a hypocrite, The Lord allowed me to marinate in my anger and disappointment long enough to make sure I clean my act up again (when I finally got it). I thank God for fine tuning me. Allowing me a chance to repent and make it right.
Not many people would openly admit their faults, but if its one thing I take away from this walk with Christ is that I will be transparent. I rebuke shame, guilt and condemnation.
Glimpse: God is not against reassessing us when we’ve forgotten the lessons He’s taught us.
Heavenly Glimpse 